Missing: The author of the blog titled, Fit Minded Mom.
I am not even sure I can fully explain why I disappeared there for a while but I will give it a shot. I guess my number one reason was that I just wasn’t feeling the whole blog thing. While I was enjoying reading them(for the most part….and more on that in a bit) my desire to sit down and share just wasn’t there. More specifically, I didn’t care to share what I was eating or how much I was exercising because it all just seemed a bit….bland.
Now, I truly enjoy reading other blogs where people are giving the exact same type of information but for whatever reason, they seem to do it in a much more interesting way. At least that is how it seemed at the time. In reading other blogs, I can genuinely feel the passion they possess for what they are writing. For me, the last month or so, it had felt forced.
I still find myself asking the questions why? Why now, after over a year did I just not find it fun anymore?
After letting myself think about it for a couple weeks, I am pretty sure that I am close to coming up with an answer.
1. I have never been one to “keep up with the Joneses”. I feel like I live a pretty simple life and while I enjoy nice things(who doesn’t) I have never felt compelled to have what others have just for the sake of having it. Until this whole blogging thing that is. I don’t have the desire(or the time, truthfully) to create cool graphics to showcase my workout of the day. I don’t have an ultra fancy camera and correct lighting to create top notch photos and I don’t have the creativity to post more than once a day. While all of that is more than alright, I went to a place where I felt like it wasn’t. I started to feel like I had to “Keep up with the Joneses” in the blog world. Thankfully, I have come to realize that I live a simple life and my blog will reflect that as well. It is me and surely if you are here reading my blog, THAT is what you want to see. More of me and less of others. If not, you should probably move on to one of those other blogs……I mean, I like them, too
2. Mom Guilt- Yep, it is as simple as that. Between cleaning my house, cooking meals, working out, running errands, being chauffeur, afterschool activities and doing all of my other mom duties, blogging was starting to not fit in very well. Or should I say, I was not allowing it to fit in very well. Like so many other moms out there, I forget that it is okay to take time for myself(other than my steaming hot, nightly relaxing bath!!) to do something that is important to me. Yes, I workout most days of the week but if I am being honest, much of the time there is a little one “working out” right beside me. To create a bit more time, I have moved my workouts to earlier in the morning so that I do have some time to sit and type out my thoughts.
3. While I really do have a passion for health and fitness, I feel like I am on a journey to find something more. Even if I didn’t have a passion for it, I would probably continue to do it simply because it is good for me. I love my family(with all my heart) and I love fitness but I feel like I am missing something. I know much of it has to do with my youngest child growing up. He will be going to Kndergarten in the Fall and I plan on heading back to work. The problem is, I don’t want to do just anything, I want to do something I am passionate about. The problem is…..I don’t know what it is yet. I keep going back and forth on whether or not I should go back to school and well, I am definitley on the fence about it.
4. As I have stated previously, I love reading healthy living blogs. It is definitley motivating and a great form of entertainment. Problem is, I have run across some blogs lately that claim to be “healthy living” but are anything but. You know the scene….over exercising yet simply eating a piece of fruit to refuel(and being SOOOO full afterwards). I mean give me a break, that is just NOT healthy and these few blogs have been leaving a bad taste in my mouth. I know the answer is simple….just don’t read them!! Don’t worry, I have unsubscribed but I can’t help but not like the irresponsibility of it. Whether bloggers realize it or not, when you put yourself out there as a public person, you are acting as a role model to people who are interested in this particular genre of blogs. Maybe this is the 35 year old in me showing my age but I don’t like the idea that others may copy this disordered behavior, thinking that is the way to be healthy.
As you can see, I have had a nice little jumble of thoughts going on in this brain of mine and now that I have been able to sort them out and make sense of them, I think I am ready to get back to it. Blogging that is. As I stated before, you aren’t going to see fancy graphics and pictures or elequent writing on this here blog but you will see honest! Some days you may see food but other days I may decide to discuss a topic…fitness related or not!!
One thing I am sure of…..I have missed y’all!!!!
Make it a great Tuesday and if you get a chance, do something you are passionate about!!!!
Other than health and fitness, what is one of your passions?
Do you consider yourself to be more of a simple or high maintenance type person?